Yesterday, I did THE craziest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Those who have known me long enough to object – talk in code, it’s a family show ;)
And YES I will tell you what I did. NO i will NOT do it now. :)
But when i tell you it was the craziest thing I’ve ever done, I need you to understand some context:
once I decided, at age 19, to go to india. and a month later, I did.
twice, i shaved my head. once all the way to a buzz cut, once to a faux hawk.
more than I can count, i’ve decided to tresspass, often at the beach, sometimes during AWFUL STORMS that almost blow the car off the road.
until grampa forbade me, i picked up hitchhikers.
i spent 40 days fasting (as in not eating), even though I knew i had struggled with disordered eating in the past.
i have a tattoo on my ring finger. But Im not married.
as a child, i’ve counted tens of thousands of dollars of drug money on my relative’s kitchen counter. (i really was raised differently than you were) and carried bricks of illegal things to be taken to do illegal things.
i’ve gone on tour with the 5 rowdiest, most ridiculous band brothers i know.
i’ve sat in the hospital next to my dying parents (separate times, both miraculously healed) and made life-and-death decisions.
i put most of my dirty laundry on the interweb for the world to see.
i chose to spend three years of my adult life in a job that, when it COULD pay me, still left me solidly under the poverty line.
i applied to and started grad school without consultation of anything but the :feeling” i was supposed to.
i’ve colored my hair every color in the rainbow. except green. even on a list of crazy, that’s just crazy talk. ;)
and well, we’re not going to talk about parties in college.
but all of that, still not the craziest thing I’ve ever done.
In fact, most of it wasn’t even in the last three years. I’ve clearly calmed down a little. Oh but yesterday…..
Anyway, clearly some of my above choices (even though not all were choices) were not right. But I think some of them absolutely were. I absolutely needed to go to India. It was one of the singular most shaping experiences of my life. I was forever changed for good. Some of the others, too.
So if you are ever considering doing something crazy, I have the following advice:
Doing something crazy because it is the weirdest, sexiest, or most exciting thing is the WRONG reason to do something. It’s probably selfish and chances are, on some level, you’re likely to regret it later.
But if you feel like you really need to do something,
except that thing, it’s counter-intuitive, and painful, and scary and new and against everything you’ve ever known, if it puts you in a vulnerable place and the outcome is RISKY, it has the potential to change EVERYTHING….I encourage you to consider if all of that is just a side effect of the fact that God is calling you to it.
Because all of that, the counter-intuitive, the painful, scary,new, against everything you’ve ever known, the vulnerability and risk, the ability to change everything,
THAT sounds a lot like Jesus. And God’s plan for him, through him, for us.