Okay, I don’t know if this will resonnate with ANYONE but I have this dress that I have kept for one reason and one reason only: My mom gets all misty-eyed and happy when she sees it. She ADORES this dress. And specifically me in it. The problem is it’s a size much-smaller-than me and the last time I fit in it I was 16 years old. There is literally NO give to the dang thing. The last time I tried it on, a few years ago, my grandmother, a woman who could fit a hog into minidress out of sheer determination, said, “I’m sorry mi’ja. I can’t zip it. I’m afraid it will rip.”
Enbedee, right? I was fine with me, even if “me” couldn’t wear the dress. I didn’t even really like the dress, even when I could wear it, I just wore it ONCE cause mom reallyreallyreally wanted me to (and maybe I kind sorta struggle with people pleasing. whatever). But I couldn’t just get rid of it because OHMYGOSHWHATWOULDMAMASAY?! Was there a good reason she could think of to keep it? Yes.
“It’s so pretty, Maritza.” Yes, that’s a “good” reason in her eyes.
Anyway, I should mention there is this other dress that I’ve had since high school too. But when I “outgrew” it (when I started eating again) mama lost half her body size and then she fit in it! So she stole it from me. No really, she took it from my closet. I was actually keeping it because I liked it. i was never going to wear it again but hey, it was super cute! (I guess that’s a good reason to me, too). I didn’t know she took it until I saw her wearing it one day. (Real stealth, ma.)
Anyway, I told you I was wearing teenager’s clothes this week. And I was. Just…the teenage version of me.
::DISCLAIMER:: DONT MAKE FUN OF MY FACE. I know I’m ridiculous I just don’t know what else to do!!
Here’s the first, the mamadress. The photo is less-than-ideal but i was only snapping a shot to show her I’d randomly tried it on and it fit.
and here is the dress I wanted.
However, I do have clothes from when mama was a teenager and you know what? I think i’d have to lose some vital organs before I ever fit into those suckas.